An Opportunity??

Today's dream was a bit confusing. I saw it twice... well, some sort of.

I was looking for a key. I arrived in an office, like school office with drawers on a wall. One particular drawer had a key with a note attached to it. I knew it was the key to open the door (which door, i don't know though.) But i heard steps coming from the door behind me. I saw the lower part of the door with some light coming out of it. So i hid out of the office.
I walked along a corridor and a woman came towards me. She looked smaller than me, dark blond and looked familiar. I knew she was gay. I asked her something and helped me finding this person. We went down some stairs where lots of new shoes were disposed on shelfs. It looked like a shopping... (??)
We arrived in a big rehersal room, where ppl were dancing. All women. We approached this woman, who was the teacher of the dancing class. I knew both were lesbians and i knew they formed a couple. The blond woman introduced me to her and she left me alone with her.
This teacher had short darkbrown hair and i followed her up the stairs to a room.
Suddenly i was outside. The sky was clear and blue. Beautiful day and i was enjoying this magnifisent view. Although i saw rocks, like volcano rocks, having sometimes strange shapes, i felt free.
I started climbing those rocks, with quite some ease until this particular, very easy looking stone i had to climb. It wasn't high, it was flat and just too easy not to be able to climb it, but i didn't seam to get on top of it and it just annoyed me, cos i knew it's too simple! *lol*

I finally arrived on top of the rocks, that built a bridge. I looked at the landscape and i was pleased and felt free to look at it. It was beautiful! I walked freely across the bridge where a car came against me. I jumped over the "fence" which separated road from pedestrian. I jumped with such an ease, wow! I saw my feet when landing on the pedestrian side. The car passing by.

What came next, i can't remember. i am not sure, if i was in a burger king like restaurant or not. I think i was sitting, but am not sure. But i remember doing the same way again! I came to this office, again, saw the key with the note attached, the noise coming out of the door behind me, seeing the woman again, when going along the corridor ect ect...
This happend only twice though.

OH! Remember something...
It was night, i was at some sort of fair. I was playing a game there. Paying something.... I won something, i guess...

Oh well, but bout that am no more that sure...

Anyway... very interesting. Looks like some good things are coming along my path in my life and... i get to understand myself even better.

I am sick though and will take care of me now...

4-in-1-Dream

This is very an exciting dream i just had lately. I had like 4 completely different dreams in one!

- DREAM 1 -
I am with my mom shopping. At the counter, she asked me to get bread. The shopping mall was really small. When we came to pay, we started to count cent after cent and checked out our pockets for every single cent. Although the amount was very low, around S$10, my feeling of not having money was there. I felt anxious.
[In reality, i have a lot of money troubles. I really have NOTHING... *sobsob*]
We had just enough to pay the little we got. I think, there were some vegetables and some other packages. But it was very little.
out of the shopping, we started looking for an ATM machine. I saw very familiar streets. I saw green ATM machines, which looked exactly like our swiss bus ticket machines. When i approached those, they really were ticket machines! So we continued our search and eacht time i saw a green machine, i thought this might be an ATM, which is always a green tram ticket machine....! I saw three of them.
We were in a park, which looked like the one in Switzerland. It's dark already. It's around 8pm. Trees, green grass. I am in switzerland, i know.
[I am living in Singapore, though. I guess i miss my homecountry quite a lot...]
I see a bus passing by. I look at it and ask myself if it's worth it taking it, cos i saw the station i needed to alight anyway... so i decide not to take the bus and walk to the next station, which wasn't even that far.
Arriving to the green tram machine, again, my mom said from far that it's ok and we should go home. We are waiting for a cab at the street. none were coming. Suddenly, one stopped and the taxi driver looks at us with a friendly smile.
We are in the cab. Driving somewhere....

- DREAM 2 -
I am having a great sex in a kitchen, which is in the most unbelievable mess i've ever seen!!! Plus, this kitchen is soooo bloody small! 2mx2m!! This room is like kitchen and bedroom at the same time.
This guy i am sleeping with, i recognise him as being my ex schoolmate. one i've never talked to. He is small, brown hair, but in a way, very nice to me, which he never was. And yes, i am sleeping with a guy...
Sexually, it was amazing! I feel contented. I am also pleasing him.

- DREAM 3 -
I am walking/running in a some sort of shopping, which looks more like a library or office like shop. I am looking for something. I see a control station of the singaporean MRT (metro) station. I am looking for sth, a greeting card, a love card, for N. (my first love).

[you have to know that lately, i have been talking to N. again. Very intimately as well. It looks like we can't let go off each other. Last time i've seen her, was before i left for S'pore, 2 years ago. I broke her heart so badly, but mine as well. And now, out of a sudden, i feel again so much for her... so unbelievable how love can resist even very long distances...]

I stand in front of a shelf with all kinds of greeting cards. I try to find one with "love" on it. Something lovely. I feel in love, i feel amorous, i feel happy. I look at many cards, some with doggies on it. They look very shiny, blue, red. One card i tried to read, had to be flipped each time you opened it (?!).
I was in a hurry. I ran, i jumped over shelfs then i met this malay couple, smiling friendly at me. I seamed to know them and talked to them. Then i continue my journey to... ??

- DREAM 4 -
I enter a kind of restaurant. The ppl in there had like a party. Outside, the weather was bad. Not stormy, but a bit windy and grey.
We are on a sailing boat. The weather still the same. Some ppl were down on the quay, while i was on the deck of the boat. Suddenly the ship started to shake slowly and gently, still. The ones on the quay started to try to attach the boat to the quay again, while on the deck, this woman helped me to keep the sail to its position. (?!).

We are on highsea. Nothing around but water. This guy, with his hawaiian shirt and the hawaiian flower chain on his neck, was next to me, trying to help me help the 2 women.
These women were in some sort of a "house/boat". It looked exactly like a house, just that this house, could float on the water... ?? Both of them were tipsy, very drunk actually. They had wine glasses in their hands. One wasa dark blond with short hair and the other had long blond hair. The short hair one had a lifejacket on, but it had lightbulps on it (????!). It was red and lit. She plugged this "light-jacket" to the DC from the house (we are still on the sea!). The other woman had this also. So, i could see the electrical cable, plugged to the DC, coming from the house (duh).
Suddenly, we started rescuing both of them, who fell into the water. the short hair one was happily floating in the water. i saw her from above. The guy and i were safely in a boat. She smiled and suddenly, took a deep breath and sank, like if she was pulled down. No wonder, she was still attached to this house boat she was on just now. She drown. She died. I felt sorrow. I felt sad. I couldn't help her.

Dream Moods

A Sexual And Lonely Dream

One of my other very weired dream is as follow...

I am on an island. Alone and with some other ppl/stranger. My ex, S., was there as well. She seamed happy and i felt that our relationship was ok then. All was well.

We are walking along the beach. The weather is not shiny nor is it cloudy. There are waves. The water is not that clear. I see grey colours. I see sand, my feet. I am digging in the sand and find bones. Skeletons. but i knew these are not human bones. Some kind of a strange creature, i just don't know.
Along the beach, there is like a big sandy wall. Incrusted in the wall are skulls. Not human ones, though. They looked similar to asian dragon masks, if you know what i am talking about. There are severals of them. Actually, the enntire wall is built out of those skulls, stuck next to each other. My ex S. and me are walking along the wall and looking at the skulls. No feelings...

I am in a bungalow-alike place somewhere on this island. It's the only one. The inside is a nice burgundy wood. it looks like in a vacation bungalow. I am having sex with a woman. I know the woman, but this one just is too young! In reality i know she can't be that young.
[realising this during my subconscious!!]
She looks so young...! Around 7-13max.!! Oh dear...!
We are on the floor. She lays on her back, legs wide open and i am in between her legs. I know the woman. She looks like my first love, N. She looks very alike, but she just looks too young! Although N is actually younger than me, she just looks much too young! *scary*
I am licking her vagina. I see her lips as a NS (near shot). I am sexually very horny.

I am on a ship. The weather is shiny, but a bit cloudy. The ship look like a pirate ship. I see a treasur.... one full of cokes! FULL! Some of it is also on the floor. We (don't know who "we" are...) are throwing the treasur off board (!!!). The white pouder floating in the sea. The treasur attached to a rope, which is again attached to the ship. We are sailing fast, the treasure floating following next to the ship.
I see someone in the sky. Looks familiar, but just don't know.
I see the treasur from below. I am in the sea. Look at the treasure and this person above. I feel nothing. I see a blue sky with some clouds. It's clear.

Dream Moods

Words to check out:
sex - skulls - island - wood/burgundy/red - sand - sea/ocean/water - sky - ship - drugs

The Brutal Dream

Just in my previous entry i stated about my brutal dream i had some months ago. Istill can remember each detail of it...
But before i start telling you about my dream, you have to know, that the scenes are radically changing. So, i might switch from topic and landscapes without noticing... but this is a dream, isn't it...

It all started in a room. Very narrow and messy. I saw a wooden floor. It looked kind of familiar to me, but still was very strange. I saw my ex.

[at that point of my waking presence, i was with S. who was my date, by the time. We started having some troubles and i just couldn't understand her and her feelings. The relation was already in a mess and i broke up the communication.
btw, for those who haven't read my first entry: i am gay =D]

S. looked very happy and she talked to me, which was really strange. She felt as nothing had happened. Her cousin was also in my dream. They went out together (!).
I am in a kitchen. Strangers around me having breakfast. The kitchen was really small and narrow, but we were like about 4-6 ppl inside there, sitting at a table full of breakfast stuffs.
I see 2 bodies lying on the floor of the living room, i mentioned above. The messy living room. I approached one body. Then i saw a woman's face. She is dead. I see her face, only. She has a bullet in her forehead (!!!). I see the blood and her shocked face: mouth wide open, eyes wide open. The 2 dead bodies have been murdered. This i somehow knew. What i knew too, is that i felt nothing. I was numb during the whole dream. Not even surprised. Just numb.

Since this dream, i checked out the net for explanations. If you are interested in it, check the following site: Dream Moods.

Words to check out:
murder - face - eyes - blood - breakfast - living room/narrow - wood/floor - happy - numb/no emotions

Amazing Dreams

Dreams are getting very interesting, the more i make some! And therefore, i will write the ones i can remember.

About one or two months ago i had really brutal (literally!) dreams. It intrigued me so much, that i started to look at the meanings in the net. What came out after that, was so true! Is like, i started to understand myself better and started to want to understand my subconscious, too. What came out is just making sense and i started to solve my "troubles".

I think, understanding your own dreams, makes a lot of difference during your waking time. Dreams are like a guide, i guess. Something you can trust in, cos they tell you the truth about questions you might have during the day. And because of that, i really wanted to know more.

The following link i found, is to my opinion, one of the best i could find. It is well organised in directories. Be it forums, dictionary, alphabetically, symbolic, numbers and even feelings!
This hit me most. You truely can "feel", having "emotions" during your dreams. You feel anxious, happy, amorous, tipsy ect. Never realised that?

Try it out!

Dream Moods